Get off your high horse
thinking I still like you
(though I probably do
but I'm also insane).
Five years isn't
long enough to forget;
although it's likely
I never will.
You brought out
the worst in me,
and that part still
lingers like a parasite.
You sucked the life
out of me like a vampire,
and now I'm just
the tattered remains.
I can't keep blaming you
for all of my problems,
painting you as the villian
but I made my own bed all along.
I have to own up to
my own wrongdoing;
I wasn't a victim
with no culpability.
I let myself fall for you
knowing you would destroy me
and now I act surprised
that I was left broken.
A part of me
wanted to be hurt,
the artist in me that
needs pain to fuel my passion.