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I can't believe it's been 5 months since I last wrote. I'm engaged now! It still feels surreal. I mean someone loves me! Enough to spend all our days together. I never thought it would happen or at least I haven't thought so for a long time. And then I ponder over the journey to here. To this day. All of the heartbreak and setbacks. So many years of tears. And words to get me through it. Often my own words. It's a miracle I'm even alive when I was so close to giving up many times. In those dark days, I have my rainbow to think about. The one that made it all worth it. And I want to make him unbelievably happy but sometimes I can't make myself happy and I worry that will bleed into our relationship. Then I want to call off the wedding because I can't disappoint another person. Especially not him. The one who has brought unspeakable joy to me.