My greatest fear is that
this will end in ruin and
I'll return to your shallow arms.
I worry that I will
destroy this good thing
and revert after all my progress.
I've grown in his love;
my heart has swelled
because of his acceptance.
I thought I would never
experience this feeling
and yet somehow it found me.
But I am just the product
of my past and it hunts me down
on a regular basis.
I am still that desperate girl
searching for a hand to hold
and only receiving rejection.
And you were there
when everyone had left me,
and you exploited my loneliness.
You realized I wanted more
and instead of granting my request,
you used me to get what you wanted.
But nevertheless I am drawn to you,
like a moth to the flame,
my soul desires devastation.