There was a time I thought I wouldn't
meet anyone better than you.
It once brought me to tears
that God had someone
in store for me that would trump you.
In those moments I was thankful
for a God who doesn't just
take away the bad things.
He also takes away the good things because
they weren't the best things.
But looking back now,
the reality was that
you weren't that good for me after all.
I was so blinded by your looks
that I didn't see how much
your character was lacking.
You never gave me a second thought,
discounted me almost as quickly
as the first time you kissed me.
I must have seen so little value in myself
that I stayed even when you
treated me very poorly.
It's sad because I can seem
like I don't care sometimes
when the reality is that I care too much.
And that's why I always get hurt
even by the ones who were toxic to me like you.
But there's a lesson here,
there's a point of reflection.
I have a firm belief that
no one you meet is
an accident or a coincidence.
I met you for a reason
and maybe that reason
has more to do with me than with you.
Maybe I needed to love myself better
and you brought to that place,
or set me on a path I needed to go.
So even if I was rejected in the process,
perhaps that rejection steered me right
with a few detours, of course.