The worst feeling in the world
is being in love with someone
who doesn't even care for you.
Looking into your eyes and wishing you
could see the potential I see.
Kissing you and feeling something
I've never felt before.
But seeing you was killing me.
You broke my heart every time
without even trying.
When you realize certain people
will never love you
like you deserve,
it frees you from
holding a grudge against them.
It becomes less about why
they couldn't love you
(that you don't deserve it)
and more about them being incapable
of giving you what you needed from them.
And you couldn't give me
the love that I worthy of
even though I wanted it desperately;
it took me months to come
to a place of acceptance.
But here I am and I forgive you
and more importantly,
I forgive myself
for holding you a standard
that you would never meet.