I stifled my sobs,
held them at the base
of my throat.
You made me look
like a fool
with your rejection.
I had to listen to you
go off-topic
for another half hour.
And then we hung up
and it might as well
have been a noose.
I ran to the liquor cabinet
and poured a glass of vodka,
let it coat my throat.
I hope it burns through
the hole in my heart
and numbs my pain for tonight.
My mind spinning;
my heart racing;
my body shaking.
I looked in the mirror
and didn't recognize myself;
my eyes blood-shot.
I was wrong about you.
I was wrong.
I was wrong.