So I turn heads.
Is that some grand accomplishment?
So what if 500 men
stared at pictures of me
and lusted after me?
You think being sexy
is a good thing.
But what if all they
ever wanted was
to touch my skin?
What if they don't care
to hear me speak,
unless it's a scream of pleasure?
My skin is soft,
but on the underside,
it's scarred beyond recognition.
It looks like someone
held a torch to it,
and in some ways they have.
What I wouldn't give
to restore my innocence.
I wish I could remember swing sets
amid children's laughter,
not the rusted chains
about to snap from my weight
on top of yours.
A park bench would remind me
of a quiet summer day,
not the burning metal
against my bare behind.
All I ever desired
was a hand to hold,
a shoulder to rest my head on.
I want his arm gently around my waist,
not his fingers digging into my back
looking for buried treasure.
Does love exist for a girl like me?
A girl that makes men lick their lips
because they've heard I taste good.
Can I find a man who will look
below the surface to find a woman
that's never been intimately known
beyond the physical sense?