I have become a shell of a person,
disgruntled, easily angered,
perpetually depressed.
How did I turn out this way?
Looking at scattered photographs
reveals a different picture.
I was happy once,
naive, but unequivocally hopeful.
Now sadness and rage reside
behind the smile.
An unmistakenable emptiness
is evident in my eyes.
Why did I become so disheartened?
What happened in my past that
destroyed my innocence?
I may have an absentee father
and an overly critcal mother.
I may have distant relatives
in more ways than one.
But are these excuse enough
to have lost my joy?
Where once I held loved ones close,
now I stand far apart,
I maintain a space for my hatred
for this so-called family.
These are people who have hurt me
in inexpressable ways.
They have hardened my heart
and stolen my smile.