Watching others find love
reminds me of how
alone I am and have been
for nearly my whole life.
Two Valentines in 28 years
results in a lonely heart.
And come summer it always
faded with the sun
as fall fell upon me.
I haven't even been
asked out in years,
no one to even refuse.
I feel so unattractive
the further I am
from my ideal self.
Every pound gained,
every wrinkle earned,
makes me less desirable.
When once I garnered attention,
no man looks my way anymore.
I blend into the walls,
my smile is not noticed
like it used to be.
It is enough to hide out
behind the shadow of
homebodiness to evade
rejection by dismissal.