Jittery

Bottled water beside my bed
Three kinds of capsule to take
Two packs of cigarette to smoke
Companions for the day

Everything fades to black
Darkness within my sight
A nagging question lingers on
Will I survive?

A train wreck of a life
Panorama of disillusion
Clouding my thoughts
Binding my hatred

No one to trust
Myself to blame
I can’t adjust
Always the same

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