5-27-04
10:22 pm
You say I have a fear of failure.
And that is why I can�t move on.
You aren�t the first to point this out.
I am sure you won�t be the last.
But here is my point.
How can you have a fear?
Of the only thing you have never known.
If I have never known success.
How can I fear it?
How can I fear the only thing I know?
Failure is a familiar uncomfortable place for me.
At least it is a known enemy.
In a world where everything is in revolt against me.
Why should I pick another battleground?
Why should I choose to move to the unfamiliar?
Only to be faced with more failure and more revolt.
I can�t even get my body to work with me.
Why should I expect anyone else to?
I can not gather support from anyone or anything.
Therefore I can not enter a battle.
Knowing I will be beat.
It is not a fear of failure.
It is a fear of the unknown.
It is a fear of no support.
One can not go into battle with no army behind them.