everyday I wonder~
In love would i fall?
today i surrender~
I'll wonder no more!
Infatuation, or even care~
I should never feel,
i should never flare~
why the hell~I feel fear?
I feel to cry~
and I almost will!
I wish to die,
and I truly know~
i one day will!
do i need luck?
I'll never get It!
I'm deeply shocked,
i admit it!
my heart just hurts me,
It badly affects me~
I wish I'd know~
why the hell am i so sad!
why dos life,
treat me this bad?
unanswered questions~ as every night,
love~ happiness~ all are Illusions~all are lies!
the Illusion i see in every picture,
I no more capture in my sIght!
yes~ i stIll wonder~ why am I so sad?
why am i alive? why am i so blind?
everythIng is killing me~ deep to core!
no~ i don't need a doctor~
cause it more than deep, It reached the soul,
i don't need a psychIatrIc, no the hell, i need no doctor,
i already am fIlled with pathetic sore,
all i need, is to wonder~ NO MORE!
The end
12\6\05