everynight~
i feel to cry,
in my dreams~
i hold him tight,
because he lives~
in my heart!
it might not be fancy to him,
though maybe it might!
i know there's nothing in~
but a deep amount,
of love and passion~
only to him it all will start!
today,
i feel like aborting my mission,
though i simply cant,
he's slowly killing me,
and i know i'm glad!
i tried to make that confession,
i tried to make him feel,
at least to say " i oneday tried".
i'm in love,
i admit it!
thinking of him,
became a habit;
as all that love, had set me apart!
today i wonder,
how did i become a dreamer?
why day by day i'm falling deeper?
is he happy to see me suffer?
or does his ego just grow bigger?
he became the nova,
that showed me whats missing,
i thought " it must be over,
my heart he's killing!"
today he's gone,
but i need to know,
with love stories~
am i done?
what will i do,
with my memories?
again i ask,
what is happiness,
where is the sun!
The end,
25\5\2004