Dear love~
here i am,, sitting in the dark,, my tears are fallin' on my cheeks, my vision is getting blurred as deep in me life seems darker and darker .. and darker....
missing u like crazy, and wondering what keeps u away from me,, was that stupid argument that we had? or was it the fact that u r finding excuses to push me away??? or u really u dont wanna hurt me?? dont u know you're hurting me this way too???
is that u dont understand the fact i cant go on like this? or is it the fact you dont wanna accept it, the way it is????
i'm missing you so bad, and i dont know if i could be able to go on without you by my side! when u told me you love me u said it'll be to the rest of our lives... but seems like love doesnt mean anything to u.... my heart is tearing to parts, my tears are fires burning me inside,, i donno what to do, without u i cant go on.. but if u can go on without me, it means it's time for me to die...
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whatever~
EXACTLY!!!!!!! I have written this letter so many times since falling in love with my bear(his nickname)he can be such a tempermental man and i pay the price with his silence to me each time he gets upset.It always seems to be over such small things.I feel like i could die inside thinking he might decide its the last time he will put up with me.His 'I Love You' made me beleive it was unconditional as mine is to him-yet he has other ideas of what love means.he has 'left me' 3 times sice his i love you was first said and i honestly had to be sedated each time it happened.-i guess this isnt a critique-just an i totally get where you are comming from thought