Proud Of Me

The mistake she complains about. The headaches that she has all the time. The reasons of staying cleaning in a house. The days and nights she wants to cry. The money she can't make. The things she can't have. It is not easy for her to say , that she is having a beautiful life. She is mad at me, cause I am the reason for that. She told me she hate me, that she wants me dead. Always yelling at me, telling me I made her life a living hell. I wonder if it all is just true lies. I don't love her, but I thank her. She is my angel, that protects me from the evil ones. She tells me that I can't do nothing right. That I should leave her alone. Always rejecting me from her life.



Nothing more to say. I can't change her mind. She is like this, nothing wrong with that. I know she love me, she is proud of me. She knows I am the best thing she have. She is my protector, she is my mom. I am proud of her. She is proud of me. We are a normal and complicated family. I was named her big mistake. She knows what to be a mom takes. She is my a real friend. She is proud of me, no matter what she had say. I am her pride, I am what had make her work hard. She seems like she doesn't like me sometimes, but she will always be proud of me. She will never be ashame to say that she is my mom.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is for all the mothers out there that sometimes feel like want their kids dead or want to die. It is hard to be mom. I thank my mom.

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Tom Elio's picture

This poem tells me how such an understanding person you must be..to forgive your mom and trust that she loves you despite not always being nice to you. You are very forgiving..Your Mom Has to be Proud of you..

Shaketa Copelin's picture

This was DEEP. And touching. It made me REALLY picture my mom and the relationship we had. Believe you me, it wasn't easy...I really thank you for posting this.

iii's picture

damn, babygirl, why your poems so sad, but thay r touching, this one it tuched me so much:
i can't even explane what i want to say,
but luv ya mom until the end of your dayz
cuz she gave life, the gretiest gift that can be
i hope she luvz u, just like my mama luvz me.

peace
ilhomboy

Tim / manatee Marshall's picture

HI again,it is said that people lash out at the one they love most,you are bold and forgiving,great qualitys, cancers are the most maternal / family of all the signs
come on now write a few more ok,i have great faith in you and we'll never meet eye to eye,but it's nice knowing you
LOL L&P

Karyn Indursky's picture

Interesting poem. It's always nice to see someone be unique. I don't think this style is dying out to stanzas and what not, but you used it well and showed how prose is just as good as any. Great job.

Elisia's picture

ea. Las madres siempre quieren a sus hijos, aunque aveces lo demuestren de la manera incorrecta. Escribes muy bien tus sentimientos hacia con ella y lamento lo que dice de ti, pero como dices, ser mama no es facil, especialmente si tienes una familia grande como la tuya. Una mama para todos. Me imagino que sufre. Aceptala y quierela. es tu madre despues de todo.

Corey Fox's picture

beautiful! and true comments
one love Corey & co