faltering at the line of a new sight
no fear just a mild trepidation
not sure if the right foot is forward
hesitant to ask formerly unheeded questions
yet I smile thinking I know why
suspicious of the lack of dismal days
wondering when it all will end
illuminating light seeming far from seeing
due to old eyes adjusted to permanent night
using informal methods of surgery
old eyes are carved out
discarded as failing waste
replaced with vision unseen
light available through these new eyes of mine
feeling freshly redeemed
and what do I see?
one radiant queen with the perception of a thousand dreams
and a cane of strength and reason
to beat away the sickness inside me
weakening the heart until it nigh implodes
a weakness I endure with a smile
a desperate struggle to revel in this fountain
knowing not when it will run dry
or when its waters will turn ruddy and acrid
I revel nonetheless
a paradise found within anothers breath
a heaven found within the heart beating in anothers chest
an experiment in terrifying joy
but my heart is not a toy
it cracks and splits
bleeding out
smiling eyes replaced with sorrow
for this is the way of my world