I've been drowning in a pool of apathy
fed from my sickness within
a quaint restorative disease
my flesh a vermillion shade
my protective coating decayed
by your dismay
and treacherous disdain
the only protection left within
thats why I am so indifferent
this cancer in me grows
as my love once bloomed
and death has been no substitute
for a life of painful solitude
so drench this seed in pesticide
let it wither
let it die
then maybe i'll be pacified
open to intrusions from outside
a lust for bitter confusion
this lust for love I hide