I fucking speak through my eyes
I fucking eat with my mind
circumventing somnambulant intent decay
world watchers admit me to my rightful place
sky so somber
distrust without dishonesty
my dishonor was met from my indecency
grave showers drenching me with atrophy
commitment soured with seeds sown by one who'd betray
my final hours lost in a futures shadowed face
alotted towers packed with my hatred for this place
I'd run away from my own bitter home
In time my own heart I shall disown
raped from me
a sweeter soul
unrealistic
that thought that once I'd be a whole
bitterness
sentenced free forgiveness
innocence
lost with the wills release
nothingness
gained from desire born
ugliness
I as the one I scorned
I fucking speak through my eyes
I thought I'd see through the lies
I fucking eat with my mind
the knowledge I've ingested was unkind