There is where I dwell,
the solitude and seclusion
is what I always knew.
I was safe here,
my castle
my hiding place.
Where the world was
far away
from me.
I did not interact
I was reserved
and tried my best
to stay away.
When I ventured out,
I tried to fit in
be like the rest,
conforming to others.
I knew not what I wanted
for myself,
but learned from others.
Now I fear I do not
know what I want,
Not knowing who I am.
I became like the rest,
wanting,
desiring,
filled with that I did not need.
My life spiraling,
becoming something I was not,
and now I am the person
I did not want to be.
I became the monster
that villain I spoke off,
the one I warned against,
I have become my own
worst enemy.
I am what I warn against,
How did I get here?
Where have I come from?
How can I get back to who
I used ot be?