I have pondered
for a while now.
The theme that has
been with me for months.
The need verses wants.
What means more to me.
Needing what is
necessary over
wanting what the flesh
desires.
As if the choice were
so easy,
when that choice
doesn't really exist.
The dilemma only plays
out in my mind.
When in reality,
I am alone.
The fantasy is only that,
something that is not real.
Something I feel I can
not obtain.
The endless waltz of
ideas runs rampant,
the visions play out,
but none of it real.
I am tormented by
the thoughts,
the what ifs that will
not come to be.
So I hold onto hope
in solitude I stay
waiting and praying
that someday this
dance might soon be over.