Things My Parents Tell Me

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"Don't feel that way" 

Oh yes, suddenly I am cured! 
Thank you so much for telling me not to feel that way.
 
"You just took it that way"
And there is the anger in your eyes. 
Like I haven't apologized a hundred times for telling you what my mind translated it as. 
 
"I just don't understand it"
I don't need you to understand it. I need you to hug me and tell me it will be alright. I need you to stop yelling at me and when I start to cry to stop telling me that you will GIVE me something to cry about. 
Obviously you already have. 
 
"I don't know what you want me to do." 
I want you to help me. I want you to tell me what to do. I'm lost in my mind, in this world, your directions are too vague you are my parents, help me. I can't see through the darkness that is my thoughts I can't see. 
 
"I can't help you if you can't help yourself." 
I.... I.... Can't help myself. I can't help myself so no one can help me. I'm broken. There is no fixing me. I... Get it. 
 
"You just took it that way." 
Oh, okay. Yeah, I should stop overreacting. Right. Yeah. I'm sorry. Really.
 
"I don't know what you want me to do." 
Nothing, I'm okay, you do so much. I get it. Really, thank you for everything. 
 
"I just don't understand it."
Haha, I don't get it either it's okay. 
 
"Don't feel that way."
Okay. 
 
Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this in response to thingd my parents have told me. And I know that by explaining it means I don't trust my audience, but this isn't me getting better thanks to dismissive answers of my parents. This is me stopping trying to explain to parents who don't seem to care, this is me telling them what they want to hear and see, because no one seems to want a broken daughter. 

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