Author Information
My Wish
I wish i could make you see how much it hurts me whenever you do these things to me. It's like a thousand knife's stabbing me over and over again. The pain is getting so hard and so tough, i can't ignore it, or hide it. I tell myself everything's okay and that i know you love me, but at time's i have some doubts about our love. I ask myselfe, How can i keep my head up and stay strong, not knowing what you'r doing or where you're at? I love you so much, but it's starting to drive me more insane, and makeing me more depressed than i already am. You tell me that you will come over, or that you will call me, but i never see you, and i never hear you'r voice. It's been month's. I keep thinking that maybe something's wrong, or maybe you'r just having a bad time,
and you just wan't to be alone. I just wish i had the answers, and that i knew what was really going on inside you'r head. I love you so much but it hurts so bad at time's.
Sitting here worried and thinking about you 24/7, non stop. It's really tearing me up inside that we are not that close anymore. We never have time by ourselves, and when you do come over, we never talk. We just lay there and watch tv, or listen to music, or do other thing's. It feel's like at times maybe sex was the only thing that could keep our realtionship strong and keep it going. You tell me how much you love me and miss me but there are times and moments where i can not go on and all i hear is rumors you tell me, just to ignore it, don't worry but how the hell can i do that if you'r never around and you never call? I love you so much but i'm so pissed and so hurt deep inside not being able see you for stupid ass reasons just makes me even more pissed off, but you don't seem to care or even give a shit about how i feel
you always think shit is great between us and that everything is perfect but you'r so wrong I don't even know how to tell you what's really going on inside my head anymore. I cry over you every single day and night and i'm always wondering where you are and if you'r okay and will you call me to let me know how thing's are going for you, and if everything is alright between us but no, i never hear from you or see you and it really make's me more depressed just sitting around thinking about you and us. I don't wan't to do anything or even move on because i love you so damn much but at the same time it really hurt's and it's tearing me apart in the inside to just sit around and wait for you to come see me or even call.
