Sorry If You Hate Me

Words still echo through my brain

Causing my heart to have the pain

Does she really hate me like she said?

Those grim thoughts run through my head.



She comes to visit, not like before

When she said it, my heart feel to the floor

I need you, sister, I really do

I am sorry that I don't hate you.



The words you spoke before you moved out

Caused my life to be meaningless. New doubts.

If I just ended my life would you feel better

You never even reply my fucking letters.



Maybe you really do feel that way.

Why does it have to last to his day?

"I Hate You." Those words seem so clear

I wish I could now hold you near.



Maybe one day, you will finally see

I am sorry for just being me.

I did what I could.  I really did try

All you did was cause me to cry.



You looked after me, I looked after you

I always thought it would be us two.

You've moved away from here, I understand

He is now the one who holds your hand.



I am sorry if you hate me, I'll go away

I'll save my love for you, for another day.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

This is about my sister.  Yeah.  She moved out and like right before she did, she told me she hated me and she couldn't wait to leave.  That was almost two years ago and I still have it on my mind.  It's like the pain never ends.  The knife keeps stabbing me over and over again.  =(

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