They blame it on drugs and my black clothes
Why I'm not in church, no one knows.
The truth is, I am angry at God for her dying
It's been a year and I am still here crying.
Just yesterday, I don't know why
I just sat there and I cried.
Just to say it: I feel so alone!
It's all my fault my Grandma is gone.
"God, I pray unto thee,
Show my away out of misery.
I feel so trapt, so alone, confused
Voices I hear, I feel so used.
I can't take back things I've done
I've it okay? YOU WON!!
Is this why you wanted me to do?
Stop breathing until I turn blue?
I pray to thee for an answer above
The person you took is the one I love.
I miss my Grandmother, It is so sad.
Please God, I am sorry for making you mad.
Give me something, please, just show me a sign
To tell me that I have not run out of time.
I want my mom to hold me while I cry.
Why did you make my Grandmother die?"