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            The thing I fear most more than anything can not be found among material objects. The thing I fear most is LONELINESS and being ALONE. I am not only afraid to be home ALONE, but I am also afraid of being ALONE mentally and emotionally, in other words I am afraid of being without friends and loved ones near me to comfort me.

I am afraid of being ALONE also because during times when you have problems with your best friends you have nobody to turn to for advice and comfort. That is the worst, scariest feeling in the world, and knowing that the ''special friend'' hates you and doesn't seem to care about you. I know all to well from experience what this is like and I would not wish these terrorific feelings of WORTHLESSNESS on anybody. If they knew what goes on in my mind when these types of things happen, they would have nightmares for months. The horror of being ALONE and knowing that nobody in this whole world cares about you hurts and makes you afraid of HEARTBREAK. I will admit that I am afraid of HEARTBREAK, and because of this fear I am afraid to LOVE someone because I don't want to get too attached and then have my heart broken and shattered to pieces. HEARTBREAK leads to feelings of WORTHLESSNESS, and that is followed by more LONLINESS.

After a horrific HEARTBREAK you become afraid of TRUST. TRUST is what hurts you the most, you think that you can TRUST someone and then once they have gained your TRUST they drop you on the ground and stomp on your heart again. TRUST leads to HEARTBREAK and HEARTBREAK leads to WORTHLESSNESS and that is followed by LONLINESS. Feelings like these are all because of LOVE. I am afraid of LOVE mainly because, all the things I am afraid of all can be traced back to LOVE in some way or another. LOVE needs TRUST to survive and TRUST leads to HEARTBREAK, and that leads to WORTHLESSNESS and that leads to LONLINESS. LOVE makes you BLIND, and makes you vulnerable to HEARTBREAK. BLINDNESS leads to LOVE and LOVE leads to TRUST and TRUST leads to HEARTBREAK and HEARTBREAK leads to WORTHLESSNESS and WORTHLESSNESS leads to LONLINESS and LONLINESS leads to being ALONE.  I am afraid of all this because I have loved someone, TRUSTED them, been too BLIND to realize what was happening and had HEARTBREAK and feelings of WORTHLESSNESS and LONLINESS and then in effect, being ALONE. All of these feelings are from TRUST, when you TRUST someone you feel confident that you can be open with them. Then they break your heart leaving you brokenhearted and not knowing who to TRUST. TRUST is a very powerful thing and I never fully TRUST anyone because TRUST leads to BLINDNESS and BLINDNESS leads to LOVE and LOVE leads to HEARTBREAK and HEARTBREAK leads to WORTHLESSNESS and WORTHLESSNESS leads to LONLINESS and that finally leads back to being ALONE.

     I suppose that under the circumstances I can further conclude that I am afraid of Trust.