It is not that I wish to sleep forever
although if that happened
I would not mind.
It is that I fear waking up
because when it happens
I loose my mind.
Somehow it has wandered away
while I rest my head.
I cannot find it.
Sometimes I have a panic attack
when I wake up.
I cannot help it.
I do not know what goes on
in my sleep.
But I do know,
if I don't sleep forever,
I do not wish to sleep at all.