There is
A hole
In my heart
But I
Don't
Fully understand
Why it's there
Yes I'm homesick
Yes I'm sick
Of being here
But I've been
Dealing
With it
So why now
Why is it
So much harder
To accept
And fight through
Nothing has changed
It is as
It always
Has been
But maybe
That is
Part of
The problem
Because
Even on
The best of days
I still feel
So damn stuck
It almost
Makes me sick
But I know
I am lucky
To even have
What I have
So I put on
A brave face
And live on
I guess I just
Wish I had
A brighter
Future
To be living for
Something
Better
To look forward to
Than just
Existing
Day to day