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HE LET HIMSELF GO
I WISH I COULD TELL YOU THAT I KNOW THE PERSON HE IS TODAY,
BUT TIME AND HIS PAIN HAVE PUSHED ME AWAY.
I LOVED HIM THE BEST WAY THAT I COULD,
HOPING THAT HE WOULD CHANGE BUT KNOWING DEEP DOWN HE NEVER WOULD.
EVERTIME I SEEN HIM I LOOKED FOR THE MAN HE USED TO BE,
AND SADDLY HE IS A PERSON I NO LONGER SEE,
I STILL HOPE BUT DEEP DOWN I KNOW
HE IS NOT COMING BACK
THE REAL HIM WENT OFF TO FIGHT IN THE DESERT OF IRAQ.
WE SENT A LITTLE BOY OFF FIGHT IN THE SAND,
AND SOMEHOW HE LOST HIS WAY IN THAT GOD FORSAKEN LAND.
IN A COUNTRY SO FAR FROM HOME,
A LITTLE BOY GREW INTO A MAN,
AND NOW HE IS LEFT TO PICK UP WHAT IS LEFT OF HIS LIFE THE BEST THAT HE CAN.
WHAT CHANGED HIM I MAY NEVER KNOW,
BUT I KNOW WHAT EVER IT WAS,
HE LET HIMSELF GO.
I PRAYED FOR HIM TO COME HOME,
AND PHYSICALY HE DID,
BUT MENTIALY HE CHANGED, BUT THAT WHAT HAPPENS IN WAR,
WHEN YOU RUN OF MEN, AND YOU START SENDING KIDS.
HE WAS FRESH OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL WHEN HE SIGNED HIS LIFE AWAY,
AND I WONDER IF HE COULD GO BACK IN TIME,
WOULD HE HAVE MADE A DIFFERENT DECISION THAT DAY ?
THAT IS SOMETHING I MAY NEVER KNOW,
BUT DOING WHAT HE THOUGHT WAS RIGHT,
HE LET HIM SELF GO.
NOW HE CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT, HE WORKS ALL THE TIME,
HAS FLASH BACKS AND NIGHTMARES,
AND DRINKS ALL THE TIME,
AND IF IS SADDEND BY WHO HE HAS BECOME, I'LL NEVER KNOW,
BECAUSE WHEN HE HITS THAT BOTTE IT IS THE ONLY TIME,
HE LET'S HIMSELF GO.
THE DAY HE COME HOME AND TOLD HIS WIFE
HE WAS DONE,
LEFT HIS KIDS BEHIND AND WALKED OUT ON HIS LIFE.
AND WHY HE DID I WILL NEVER KNOW,
FOR WHAT EVER THE REASON
HE LET HIMSELF GO.
WHEN HE LOOKS IN THE MIRROR, HE DON'T KNOW THE MAN THAT HE SEES,
AND I AM SURE HE MISSES WHO HE USED TO BE.
WERE THE REAL DANNIE IS I WILL NEVER KNOW,
HE LET HIM SELF GO.
