I am looking at my vacant eyes
eternally empty
I believe in nothing
And I don't know how I still love you,
I just do
You only bring the pain of salty memories
You wouldn't want me now
my soul is an aching shell
and my beauty has lost its face
But if you want me,
you can find me in the ocean grey
or flying above clouds that promise rain
Sometimes I dream of you and
it is different
It is as if you never left me all those times
and my heart isn't seeking shadows to lie down and die in
I wonder if you had never broken me,
if you had never ripped me in half........
It is too heavy to bare
Because if you wanted me, you
would have never let me go
I would never have to look down at my
wrists and see your ghost,
imprinted on me forever