You were wide eyed between the
cedars
I remember the night smelling
so sweet
like cheap wine
and cigarettes
and trees
I never kept anything you gave me
and the regret spills over
like a random mountain stream
I don’t know what I am now
without you
and you didn’t know that deep
down I really loved your stupid jokes
Because I never laughed.
I had the chance,
and I didn’t laugh
and when I watched
a ball of light roll from
your lips
I felt everything
go wrong
And
I guess it’s inside every man,
the split mirror,
the black serpents tongue
slithering in
and out for
a breath you didn’t have
the cold, not so quick death
And you always had said…
that when you’d had enough
you’d take to the fields
You’d climb the hay and
lie at the foot of the forest
the cedar stinging your nostrils
I just never really believed you.