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dear 5 year old me,

you just started to be able to have a memory,

and keep track of the events that are to come,

dear 5 year old me,

you just had your birthday,

this is the frist memory you are to have,

it isn't a very good one,

you went to chuck'e cheese,

your dad downed a pint before he went,

this cause a lot of yelling between parents,

made the party not as fun as what it should have been,

dear 5 year old me,

you aren't as strong as what you think you are,

you don't know of the events that ly ahead,

you don't know of the drunken days,

and sleepless nights,

that have been prepared before you,

dear 5 year old me,

you still don't know what happens behing closed doors,

you hear mommy screaming,

you ask her can you come in,

daddy says no,

and you obey,

but you probably would have went in anyways if you had any clue of what abuse was,

and if you had any clue that abuse is what was happening to mommy,

dear 5 year old me,

I bet you didn't know that the grandma you loved was going to die of a heart attack when you were 6,

bet you didn't know that you would be pulled off her casket,

as the tears from a final hug smeared her make-up,

dear 5 year old me,

bet you didn't know that Christmas was always going to be delayed a few months,

for daddy to get home from jail,

dear 5 year old me,

you didn't know how your life was going to be,

you didn't know that you wouldn't be accepted for coming out of the closet in 3rd grade to the parents you though loved you,

you didn't know that some boy was going to try to strip you of your dignity in 4th grade,

and have your mother believe the boys that did it rather than you,

you didn't know that things were going to become too much to handle in 5th grade,

you didn't know you were going to try to hang yourself,

didn't know your dad was going to go to the bar for a beer after catching a glimpse of your sufficated face,

dear 5 year old me,

you didn't know that your girlfriend was going to die in a car crash a day before your two year anniversary,

you didn't know you were going to be single for two years after that looking for someone just as good,

you didn't know that you were going to find that 8th grade year,

you didn't know that this girl you have been with for a while was going to turn out to be your high school sweet heart,

so keep her safe,

dear 5 year old me,

ther is not enough time in the world to write about all the pain you have been put through,

dear 5 year old me,

all that you have went through has shaped me into who I am today,

dear 5 year old me,

thank you for putting me through hell,

because I wouldn't be half the person I am today,

thank you 5 year old me