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The Game
The Game
Sitting quietly in the dark, alone in my room
Lost in my thoughts, in my pain in my personal doom
Weighing me down against my will, tightening its grip
Tearing my heart, my mind, and my very soul into thin strips
Silently tears roll down my cheeks, eyes not willing to hide
A war raging within me is beating what is left inside
no more fight resides in me, I can’t live with this anymore
don’t want to be this way, nor live this way and ignore
the pain im causing and im feeling is too great to bear
only few can understand this that I feel and few care
and even less should know of what fills me with such shame
for even though I have no fault of the cards ive been dealt in this game
I feel less than because of it, barely normal, and even so; ready with a smile
Hiding behind it, using it as a shield covering up the desire to just go wild
Scream, cry, break… anything, just to be real for one moment
to stop hiding my condition and its constant torment.
By LRBLUE
Exquisite writing!
Such a nice depiction of personal turmoil and struggle within. My appreciations!!
Dr S T Wali
Pediatrician/Pediatric HIV Specialist
New Delhi-110001
A Beautiful and painful write.
It is very hard to cast off shame and pain but it does not have to define us. it may define a victim but we are also able to define survivors by this very same means. Be proud of wearing this pain so long tucked under your sleve. This is beautiful poetry born of this horrible crime of affliction. I have one day a year when I cast it all off every defining moment and redefine myself. I write it down and look upon each year knowing it is one more year I am a survivor. A fighter. they will never take me dead they can only have me alive and living. My shame is my new reason for living. I will not let it be for nothing. I hope you find your way out soon too. God Bless Hugs SS
Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS
"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."
thank you so much for your
thank you so much for your words.....i feel validated, and it means the world to me.. God bless :)
lee