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The Fire
The Fire
I’m sorry that I pushed you beyond the point of no return.
Would the fire be just as fierce if I had let it burn?
I tried to stifle the growing flames until I could feel no more.
And yet I died a thousand deaths even colder than before.
Could you find the little girl that‘s lost inside of me?
The honest one whose unafraid to feel more than apathy.
For you can make me rise above the wall I’ve built so high.
I tell myself you’re just a friend, but my heart says that’s a lie.
All my resolve and common sense slips like water through my fingers.
To quench the fire I long to feel yet the warmth still seems to linger.
Your eyes can see right through my skin into what my scars contain.
I’m stumbling to say the words that my heart cannot explain.
It’s hard for me to open up when all my doors are closed.
Yet you can captivate and tame the thorns upon this rose.
You melt the ice that freezes me when I can think of no excuses
To make the distance infinite when defenses are rendered useless.
In my own strange way, I count on you, just so I could know you’re there.
But when I’m standing next to you, I wonder if you even care.
I hope that I am not too late or have you drowned the smoke in rain,
Until the shadows overtake and the ashes are all that remain.
I didn’t want to fall for you but I’m on the brink of giving in.
This constant hurting is a battle where I am weak and cannot win.
For what it’s worth, I think of you, and it keeps me up awake at night.
So I pray for god to give me sleep and keep you safe till mornings light.
I won’t be brought down to my knees. Just give me a swift release.
I’ll fade again into the darkness and with you I’ll make my peace.
I'll take a leap of faith on you and jump the bridge less taken.
Though you may not be at the bottom, thus leaving me forsaken.
But if you could find it in your heart to feel the way I do for you,
I’ll go for broke and walk through fire since I have nothing left to lose.
