kill me, choke me until I'm blue
shut me up in my room, let me rot
let me stink, the flies swarm and
become closer to me then you ever
were,
I hate you.
I'm a prisoner, I'm a slave, I'm
an emotional wreck, nerves shot
rocking back and forth until brains
spill out of my ears onto the floor
shove me
I fall onto the gravel filled road
slam the door and drive, lean against
the wheel, press the petal down and
go go go
I hate you.
hands moving rapidly over paper
smeered ink on my fingers, blood from
my lips slipping down my chin and
landing onto this white fallen snow
of possibility, of future quality,
future ramblings, when you're dead,
because when you're alive you crush
my dreams, crush my laughter, crush me
stomp on me, make me vulnerable
make me scream
I ache my body shakes, head hurts,
I'm burnt, all products of you
beating me, you've beat me, I'm beat.