Terror at the back of my mind
A small inkling of truth
Never resting never resolving
It’s always been there
I just didn’t want to face it
I shoved it in a box
Until it grew so large
The hinges broke free
I covered it with a sheet
And it slowly burned through
It will never go away
I will have to face it someday
Here goes:
You will never like me
The way I want you to
There is no hope
And I should give up
I should give up
Why can’t I give up?