I am on a downward spiral
I feel can see the bottom now
I can almost touch the bottom of my hole
I sense the bottom and I want to stop falling
these wings, can not stop me
I know they are broken beyond repair..
They have carried a burden, they should not have to carry
My children are all better, but now I have to try and heal myself
I just hope I am strong enough
My spiral, downward is starting all over again
and I do not know why
I try not to do this
but I can not stop it.
Why do I keep doing this to myself
Why do I let my happiness go away..
I have no reason to be "depressed"
My meds seem to be working, or are they?
My hope is all but gone
I saw 'anger' in her eyes
I saw resent in her eyes'
I saw something I never wanted to see.
So this spiral is all I have left
see how far I fall this time before I catch myself