I Cry

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I cry for the loss of my love

Why did he forsake me?

Why did he say I love you and not mean it?

What did I do to make him not love me?

Why did he leave me? I cry to try and understand this.

Why does he hate me so? I cry to understand why?

I cry for the love that I will never feel, from him.



I cry for the new child that you have giving to me.

I weep for the love it may never feel from its father.

I weep daily cause he will never love me

I weep cause he may never love our child

I weep for the loss of my child

I weep for not seeing her daily

I weep in fear of a new life to be born.

I weep cause I do not know if I am worthy of a second child.

I weep cause I feel like I have lost my way to you lord. I know you will always be there for me, but I feel like I am falling down a deep dark hole and there is no way up to your light anymore.

The light that I do see is not light it is darkness, that is trying to take over my life, and make me do things that I do not want to do. Make me feel things I should not be feeling, make me see things that are not there, and hear voices that are not good ones to hear.

I weep for the fear of losing both my best friend and the man that I love, with the birth of my second child. I weep cause I do not know how to handle whom will be the father.

I weep for the loss of love in my life.

I weep for everything.






Author's Notes/Comments: 

I wrote this when I found out I was pregnant with my second child

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