The only way to avoid pain
Is not to feel
I once believed having emotions
Made one real
Out of everything I was dealt
I was the only one suffering
Dealing with hurt
I Now know was inflicted by self
Now my heart is black
With the calmness of a hearse
Rendered my worth
Destroyed the essence of character
Took away pleasure
Silenced all laughter
Left behind the sad mug
And what I used to be
What I once despised
Made me see
Now I can be everything I was
By taking away the love
By taking away the feelings
Left in it’s place
My reflection is bleeding
As the new me is seething
Living hatred
Surviving off revenge
All though I may not cry
My eyes are boiling red
The better half of me
Is DEAD