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My First Love
On a day Immediately after another you hate
I looked in the eyes of a heart broken into despair
A heart dark and gloomy like the kids that were always made fun of and they screamed to there mom and dad that they just didn't want to be there
In the situation that executed our communication brought us farther than ever before
You were that first step the hardest thing to recover from you were my first door
A door that opened up so much stress and reminiscing at the same time so many tears and years waisted by this door
But the question that remains unanswered the question the does not have a quotation was do I stay or do I leave
Do I fall in the crowd and loose my individuality ?the only since of pride that I had left .were you worth the time? were you worth my death?
See I remember the walks In the park the secrets we Entrusted each other with ,the ones that were to embarrassing to say in front of our friends
See we had something that I thought never end
But that was my blame of the games that you played I was a naive sucker and you were to, just infatuated by this 4 letter word we just wanted to pursue
Both what we would say hurt by this world ain't noting left to do then to fall in love with you
But when your naive you're feelings execute and demolish every part of reality left in your brain you think everything positive that has changed is because of them why the smile on your face comes from more than just a friend
My first love my first love and my last well at least that's what I thought back then
See the contradictions that we had between hate and love like a teenager growing into a women or a man like a caterpillar becoming a butterfly ready to let loose and breathe
But us, we, being inpatient little assholes and instead of taking our time postponed ,no!more like revealed how much it wasn't real
And another question that remains unanswered was again was finding out that we?us?whatever the fuck we were real? was it a fucking Disney movie that never end because to be honest baby well my use to be baby I thank God for every moment we would spend
But see I use to hate you, I use to wish you death but over years and of maturing and finding my reality and the difference with love I thank you
You made me a nonbeliever, but a believer in love ,contradicted my habits ,and the words I would say isn't that ironic how the world ends up ?but you , you taught me a book or a mrs or mr smith couldn't teach me you taught me in the ages of distraction and disobedience not even the women who birth me could do that At this time
See I had a problem and there were two outcomes to it
1:me and you together forever no matter what. kinda of cliche but enough to believe ,or
2:move on and let the world mature your life instead of a person hardest thing I would have to do
But see when I added up me+ you it = out to be a life full of nothing but stress, and a life non ending test
A test that I would study for so hard but eventually and always fail ,but something in my heart would keep me there to prevail see you and me being first love we were deprived deprived of a child hood, a childhood that could've been great a childhood that could of just maybe brought us back to the same plate but hey I guess it's fate
But I thank god for you and I hope you being deprived is the reason why you're living so well,healthy, and alive, but throughout all of these complications most important thing you taught me through our relations you taught me to survive ...
-Kris Habor
