viscous stench of darkness wraps
bony fingers of death around my soul;
it's murderous assassins hands
skillfully clutching at my heart
while smothering my will to live,
strangulating my sanity,
leaving a broken self image
so hideously scarred that even
I don’t recognize who it is
that I see in the mirror.
All hopes dashed; faith driven
against the cold stones,
trodden carelessly underfoot,
the remnant pieces,
those shattered shards,
shredding to a bloody pulp
All I ever wanted was to love and be loved;
And now, having failed at every twisted turn
enduring it all as years sailed by
leaving my idyllic youth
to rot somewhere in hell
with corruption, mold and decay,
where is there to go?
Those precious few who know me well
listen and truly sympathize,
wishing to high heaven
I would do something soon before it’s to late
to dispel impending tragedy.
But after all the reasoning
I am left with all the dirty,
overwhelming gory details
Of what to do.... where to go...
How can I survive?l
For once the mirror is cracked,
there is no putting it back
to its former reflection of glory.
Once cracked, always cracked....
leaving a garish image
crying secret tears
drowning in despair
of what might have been...
Just unsightly dust to be swept
under the rug and forgotten.