So I'm sitting here and watching TV with my one and only. I can't wait to talk to her. I want to talk to her because she's my best friend and then more. I can't wait to just have time with her. I hope that this is just going to be ok. I'm so scared of losing her because she means the world to me. I am so excited for her to be with me forever. We are engaged and that means everything to me. I just don't want to lose her. I'm scared that she's finding someone else because I love her more than life it's self. I can't wait to keep her as my own because she's so special to me. I can't lose her because if I lose her then I lose everything. I'm in her home and her best friend and we can be completely honest with each other. I'm just hoping that we can work everything out because she's everything to me because I can't wait for her to be in my arms because I just want to hold her and love her and care for her. I'm really scared of losing that. How can there be someone removed from your life when they are everything and you would do anything and everything for them. I can't wait for her to be in my arms because that's everything that matters to me. I love just holding her and cuddling. I want more of that again. I'm going to tell her everything tonight. I'm so scared to tell her everything. Mostly because of the fact that she might walk out on me or not like what I have to say which would all be true. She wants me to tell her everything so I'm going to tell her everything. Wish me luck?