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1am
I am laying here, as God made me.
Freedom, beauty of a human body.
some may say I disfigure it
To me it's art.
Sand between my toes,
Down tempo electronica.
1am
Reality sucked.
1:40 am
Reality still sucked.
2am
Adrenaline
2:20am
The world stood still.
The sky did not move.
I was alone. All alone.
2:30am
I am happy.
again.
me.
No wind whatsoever. The clouds stayed intact.
I blew, blew, BLEW...
and fell back.
I was ten pounds, I carried myself on two fingers.
I had control. The world was mine.
I floated still, so still.
fish jumping around me, racoon playing on the shore.
Fireflies and two stars.
I felt the slimy skin skim across my stomach, my back, my legs.
I belong there.
Fish without water. I've been deprived.
Faced my fears and went in deeper.
as deep as I could go.
Deep. Far. Nothing.
Nothing, nothing around me.
Nothing.
The sky looked upset.
I kept floating, on my back, to my stomach.
Back and fourth like erratic, jerky pendulum.
The sky moved. It moved in circles.
light, dark, light, dark.
dark, light, dark, light.
spin it backwards. Dunk.
I'm in the middle. Middle of my world.
Middle of my lake.
I don't want an Island.
I don't want to feel the ground.
Mosquito buzzing in my ear.
bzzz, bzzz, wham!
Snap back to reality, reality.
Fuck reality.
I need reality.
reality.
Real TY.
TY
I need myself.
Blessed to be alive.
Just For Tonight.
