PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

apparently

for me

it takes a random movie

for me

to see

where i've been going wrong all this time 

cuz in my mind

ive been ignoring all the signs

blaring in front of my face

this empty space

keeps letting all the pain seep through

and i never know what to do

in any situation

and at this point im wondering

when asked

.....

who are you?

who the fuck are you?

i think i have the answer

i think i know

and so

i start the flow

of giving a definition

making sure there is a distinction

between who you

THINK i am

and

there is

....

but do i know what it is

am i brave enough to figure it out

brave enough to shout

it out

loud

for the world to see

and to take me

as i am

if i dont even know myself.....

the thing is though

i do know

i do know

and its not what you want me to be

its not what you think you see

its not what this society

labels me

its not about how much ive been hurt

by love and life and family

its about my strength

my weakness

and

the ability to know the difference between the two

so fuck you

ask me one more time

who are you?

who the fuck are you?

and i can tell you

that i am

insane

i have a genius for a brain

i crave love

and im always thinking of

...something

i can tell you

that i am a ball of anxiety

i am a non conformist of society

sex is a beautiful thing

and i am ready to spread my wings

across the skies amongst the clouds

sometimes im way too loud

but i dont care

because

i refused t be silenced anymore

i cant tell you

that i am extremely scared

of the love that is right here

in front of me

for i am so used to hate

hatred

of life

hatred

of myself

hatred

of the world

yet

i still know love exists

and i crave it 

so ask me ....

i can tell you .. i can tell you now that i know and i am not afraid of who i am anymore

i can tell you..

this random movie

made me see

made me realize just how much i love poetry

and words

and its okay for me to want to be heard

and

that i am ready to be....