im trying to be positive
really i am
but its so hard
so hard
im broken down
im torn
im shattered to pieces
and
i pick myself up
the shell of me is the only thing left
as i
smile
gracefully
through my tears
clinging on to the only thing
that keeps me going
but its hard
so hard
to save face
toweling off the marks that
my tears leave
stopping myself from
(self-destructive-ness)
so i cling some more
dont want to burden you
no .....
you have enough ......
but its hard
so hard
life has beaten me
eaten me
spit me out
yet
the smile leaves my lips
slowly
slowly
cause im trying
(really, really i am)
but its so
so hard
................