he found a spot inside my head
it hurts to know
that
i regret even meeting him
even though
meeting him
(at the time)
was a good thing
and now ...
a part of my brain
and
half of my heart
has his boots all over it
those songs
i cant bear to listen to anymore
that movie
leaves a lump in my throat
his smell
is still on my skirt from that night
(no matter what i wash it with)
he is a permanent marker
as my tears
continue to fall as my mind goes back to the
times....
he is there when i dont want him to be
i want to wash that
man right out of my dreams
but
he wont comply with me
i dont know what it is
but
i know that its closure
i know that its an explanation
i know that its some sort of confirmation that
i am not that bad
is what i need
(and yet)
he is found a spot inside my head
and
he refuses to leave
(please.....
just leave)