it is near dawn
and I hear the crickets beckon me
there is nothing but the sound of their call
and my heartbeat
my tears slowly fall
hitting the window pane softly
I soon realize that my lonliness
is nothing more than
a reality
that I can not control
it's okay though
I say to myself as I brush
my last drop of eye water
on my sleeve
I should be used to it by now
but I am not
I long for something more
something that can take me
away from this
neverending battle with the pain
in my heart
the sun peeks through
and I look up
to see yet another dim sky
falling upon me
the clouds are grey
and it looks like rain
just in time to match the last
teardrop on my shirt
and
I sigh
as I wait for the day to finally begin
and
I pretend that everything is
okay
once more ....