your scent is still on my
sheets
so i
close my eyes
thinking of
everything
between
you and me and
i dont want you
inside my head
anymore
complications of what could have
been
ring in and out
and
i retire into those
same
sheets
too exhausted from tears
to wash
scared that thoughts of
you and me and us
and everything
good and bad
will fade away
even though thats what i want
im not sure
(if thats what i need)
....i was
scared
distant
uncommunicative
non-existing in the middle of you
and
oblivious to it all
but
i loved you through it all
and
i knew i wasnt enough
from the beginning
though i tried
and
those words
those parting words
from
your lips to my ears to my soul
cut deeper than this small blade to my arm
can ever...
damage is done
heart is completely ripped apart
future is more uncertain than ever before
and
your scent
your scent is still on my fucking sheets
and i want to hate you
and i want to tell you
and i want you to know
but
all i can do is smell you
and
cry....