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it's you
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Feelings... It's you...
I want you
I've been
saying to myself all along that I don't and that I can't possibly
want you
but
I
do
( you see )
I
feel it everytime I am in his arms
they
make me feel so
safe
and I hear it in his voice
deep
sexy
masculine
as he spews out these forms of
ideologies
thoughts
opinions
.......feelings......
(though he refuses to admit that his emotions spews out with them)
but it does
and
I feel it ever so deeply
ever so
(intensely)
and I can't help but wonder ...
is this it?
and
even if it isn't
it feels really good at this moment
EVERY moment I am near him
and
I realize
I want you
I want you in my being
I want you in my loins
I want you inside me
I want you
even though all you have given me is pain
pain beyond any measure
pain that I still feel to this day
even in the midst of him
because
I know the deeper I fall
the worse it'll be for ME
....in the end
I struggle to trust him fully
though I trust him enough to give myself to him
to melt my heart enough to let him know who I really am
to want to be within his presence ....just to be within his presence
because
there is no logic when it comes to him
as much
as he may want there to be
....yet I manage to keep my emotions in tact
until I am alone
thinking of him
and I think...
of how much
I want you
with him
even though I am already there
and I am scared
nothing good comes out of love
and as much as I refuse it
as much as I choose to abhor it
I want love
I want love with him
but
will take it in any
(shape, form or fashion)
as long as it's real
as long as it's true
as long as it comes without the pain that I am used to
I deserve you
I know now that I do indeed need you
just doesn't know why
(you...love)
hate
ME
so much ....
