Sweet Depression

Folder: 
Depression

 

 

I sit by myself and cry
Over memories of long ago. 
The person I was has since died. 
Who I am I no longer know.

 

 

I remember friends I had 
And summer days long forgotten. 
Of playing war games with my dad, 
and dreaming of my begotten.


But somewhere through the mists of time 
All I loved has faded away. 
There is no poetry, no rhyme 
To express what my heart needs to say.


Though people are always around me 
I somehow feel I'm always alone. 
They never seem to really see 
Or hear my voice's depressed tone.

 

I long for the sunny days, 
The sensations of being free. 
And I search in this dismal haze 
In hopes of finding what once was me.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Written in 2003, I was in my 3rd marriage and we were having some issues. My best friend had recently died and my then husband threw a fit cause i wasn't supposed to mourn another man, I couldn't get pregnant and I desperately wanted children, I wasn't allowed to have friends... you get the point... I felt all alone

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