there are many worlds that exist in me
and in you, paths we choose to project
or hide or harbor
you told me to reign it in and splice
your being from the air between my lips
between my pen and my hand
between my head and my heart
i am not worth a second of your love
and i am glad you have removed yourself
from the twist of my embrace and my stifling kiss
i am not worth a second of your thought
and i respect your allegience to moving on
its kept a vigilance and purpose to my words which
so often want to come back to kneel before you
whom i loved with all of myself
i heard you, when you said it was all bullshit
and asked me to spare you these sad poems
i heard you in every corner and and every core
and every word that was stored was touched and changed
and honed
i still believe you are who you were
and i will plod on ever trying to create myself anew
create myself everyday against fatigue against doubt
create myself now, right here
every thing i write every single thing
every single moment choosing, denying, hoping
breathing, easing, reaching, praying